You probably has seen this in my discord bio

It's quite simple that it means i feel like myself is very important, and i feel like i HAVE to be there and i expect so much for my digital/sona’s appearance in some pictures, for short, “if my friends were getting drew in that picture, i must be drew too.”, and i also expect myself to be the greatest one, the most loved one, and the one who has the most fans (also the reason why i put “Z|F” there, i was referencing myself to “Y/n”)

And i honestly whenever my friends found a partner for them, i feel like i wasn't that important in their life but I can't really be mad considering how happy they were. And i honestly feel i was messed up for expecting them to break up immediately and i do not like that.

I feel something is wrong whenever… idk.. i feel ignored, when ik it's not my time to talk, it feels like a part of my daily life is missing, or I'm just bored. i usually walk away cuz of it.

And also i feel kinda selfish cuz i hesitate to say sorry, it feels embarrassing to say it in front of you all but that mistake just haunts me. But i always thought to myself “if they seem to forget my mistakes, I'm safe” which i think it's messed up.

Even though i explained all of this, i might think I’d still be considered problematic due to past trauma, i feel like it's still not enough explanation but idk how to explain further.

That's all.